There was a meeting with Drs. after I sent the update yesterday so before I continue with today I need to begin there. Ayden was in cardiac arrest for 15 min. While that seems like a terrible number we were assured babies have had CPR for 45 mins. We were not able to see him. Deidre & Chris did only for a moment & as much as they tried to prepare them there was NO preparation for how he looked. His beautiful little face was swollen, tubes everywhere, plastic patch over opening, covered in blood, one small infant so much unnatural things. My heart breaks. Not only because this is my grandson but I am watching my baby deal with all this. Aubrie & Elijah are of course disappointed, they wanted to see their brother. How do their little minds & hearts understand all this???? All they know is the brother they have longed to meet is here & no one has allowed them to see him. Please lift them up..... They hurt too.
We were told they would be working with him all night. He is on life support - a heart & lung machine and in an induced coma....paralyzed is the word they used. Lifeless. I'm wondering how can his parents look at this & it make sense? Their son whom they barely even met but love desperately is in there somewhere, in the midst of all this technology...... He is on blood thinners to keep the blood flowing thru this machine in addition to antibiotics, pain meds, and I can't remember what else. Because he has to keep being given blood the additional blood has to be mixed with the same amount of medicines. The plastic patch would be removed periodically to remove pus & any clots and they would repair any source of bleeding should one be found. The machines are supposed to also allow him to gain strength in addition to keeping him alive for the surgery that is coming. The drs. are cautiously optimistic.........
This morning. He is holding on. Do you feel the impact of those words? That is what my daughter was told. They did indeed work with Ayden all night. Exploratory surgery was done to look for the source of bleeding, which was not located. Although they did not find the source the bleeding slowed. A clot was discovered & removed and once again he is bleeding. A sonogram was done of his head & that looked good. He is cleaned up & we were told we can see him.
We've got so many emotions running here. Ayden is fighting for his life. Personally - I have moved to a higher emotional place. Praise God He is in control & will supply what we need but this journey sucks. Pray we don't get on each others nerves as we each process & handle this. There's nothing much else to say except we continue to trust Him but aren't real happy about being here. Sheila spent time ministering & reassuring Deidre yesterday. Complications went hand in hand with the procedures her son had also. So sweet, so tender the love of Jesus. Pray that those times of notice, of attention, of being cared for by our Daddy would sustain us, would encourage us, would calm us in times that faith is needed. As you petition the King for Ayden's life sit still before Him also, allowing the Mediator to minister to you and thru you for us for we do not know all we need to ask but Jesus does!
In His grace, carried by His strength, Gay & family ~ hugs!
-- For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:13-14
-- For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:13-14
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